A plan coming together

Every once in a while,  something has to go right. Obviously,  I'm not a professional dog breeder or I wouldn't be looking at an unplanned litter, but just because they weren't planned doesn't mean that they aren't loved. They are. Unbelievably so. It's ridiculous how utterly completely I can fall in love with puppies.  Each one is so friggin special. I want to find them humans that will love them as much as I do. This can take some time and involves some networking too. I mentioned to my son Paul that I was looking for homes. He has a friend. A nice friend that just lost her husband and needs some one to cuddle. Someone to love. I imagine bringing a little bit of laughter to her home will be welcome too. So, Dawn will be leaving soon and I'm beyond happy about this...

Missing them

There was a time that I saw my sisters every day. They've seen me at my worst. Back in the days before I even knew that I  needed coffee to start my day and before I  realized that chocolate isn't optional at certain times of the month.
I feel so bad that I can't join them weekend to celebrate Robyn's late 50th Birthday  especially since she made mine incredibly special.  She made me cupcakes with cowgirl hats on them and we went to the Dixie Stampede.  Good times.
But every time I get to spend time with them, it's incredibly interesting.  Ask Robyn about a wet loo or Lee why you don't follow elk upstream.
Maybe we might have gotten our family tattoo and talked Mary into getting one as well. I will miss them so much, but I pray for their safety.  If you know them, you really know how much this is needed. I hope they have fun. Will catch up soon. I promise.

The future

Most of the time when I think about the future,  it's pretty immediate like what's for dinner this week, what I'm going to wear, when I'm going to clean house or put up laundry. Long range is wrapping Christmas presents.  But, when something goes wrong nothing seems important other than those you love.
I went to the hospital with bp of 220/140 because of some internal pain. Still working on the exact nature of the source but that damn pain is gone and I have to much to do to get sick. There are quilts to be finished.  Jamming sessions to be had, and trips to be taken. Hugs and kisses to be given. Tag me not nearly done yet.

Drowning

The following are lyrics from a song by Chris Young:
Still got your number in my phone
And even though you don't know I still listen
I still call and wait 'til the tone
Just to hear you saying "leave a message "

Since you've been gone I've had to find different ways to grieve
There's days that I don't even want it on my mind
But tonight I'm weak

So, I'm gonna pull out pictures,
Ones with you in 'em
Laugh and cry a little while
Reminiscing
By myself
I can't help that all I think about is how you were taken way too soon
It ain't the same here without you
I gotta say, missing you comes in waves
And tonight I'm drowning
Yeah, I know you're in a better place
And one day I'll see you again
But it's killing me we can't be face to face
I miss my best friend