Friday, September 11, 2020

Remembering 9/11

 Nineteen years ago, The Twin Towers fell and America's innocence was shattered. Never had so much devastation come to our country and it hit like nothing before.  Today's feed is blasted with images of that day. I can tell you where I was. What I was doing and I can tell you what I was feeling.  I remember the pit I carried in my stomach for days. I remember how sore my eyes were. I remember trying to explain to my kids what had happened without scaring them. I don't think I succeeded.  I know they were scared. We all were. 

There were so many heroes that showed themselves on that day. Some we may never hear about.  

Thursday, September 3, 2020

Has it been ten years?

 Oh I know it has. A wonderful ten years. I went to the beach to return to find this:

We usually go somewhere for our Anniversary. We made several different plans but they all went south due to the pandemic restrictions.  So we went with an abreviated version of last years plan that was cancelled due to a hurricane. For the last three years, someone has gone with us on vacation.  Wonderful memories were made, but this year it was just Dwight and I. I think we needed it. 

Sometimes you get so caught up in making a living and working,  you forget how important the little things making coffee for your person just the way they like it. Like sitting in a car for hours with no radio and just talking. Like spooning.  Like making each other laugh just for the hell of it. Like putting someone's happiness before your own. 

An another Anniversary to realize how incredibly lucky I am.

Saturday, August 29, 2020

And we're off

 Can't believe vacation 2020 is really gonna happen. We've planned so many trips and had to cancel due to COVID and travelling restrictions. It's finally happening. We're taking a trip to Sanibel Island where I'll hunt for sea shells and Dwight will use his medal detectors to find buried treasure. We'll rest and eat some seafood and hopefully get some good photos. All the while we'll be praying that Dixie does not go in to labor early and that things stay as calm as they can around our house. 

Thursday, July 30, 2020

Day of the dogs

Actually yesterday was the day of the dogs. Dixie and Oscar celebrated their sixth birthday.  Dogs. Six years. Merely words that don't do them justice.  Dixie and Oscar are physically dogs but they are so much more than that... the memories,  the smiles, the laughter, the love they've given is so much more than from a dog. It's  from a friend. A loved one.
And six years? I can't imagine my life without them. Chances are I will probably out live them, but I don't want to. I  try not to think about it and we just make the most of every day.

Monday, July 27, 2020

Front porchin

I imagine with all the amount of quaranrintines going on there is a lot of front porchin. You know you sit on your front porch and take it all in. Early when covid 19 was just getting started, there were articles on how to raise your spirits. One of those articles recommended hanging Christmas lights and I did. I've always loved Christmas lights so I didn't really need a reason but it makes me appear a little more sane. Anyway, early Monday morning you can find me front porchin. I have the lights on and a good cup of coffee in my hands. The dogs and I take in the morning listening to whipporwills, an occasional owl, and sometimes coyotes howling in the distance.  The dogs play and I pray.
I thank God for the amazing life he's given me. I pray for the continued good health of our family especially our nurses. Goodness we have a lot of essential heroes.  I pray for people I don't even know. I pray that this virus ends and our country begins to heal.
Before I know it, the sun is breaking over the mountains and the lights aren't needed. My coffee is getting a little cool and it's time to start chores.

Tuesday, June 30, 2020

Hitting my knees

After knee surgery, you kinda take it easy on your knees. Mine was six months ago and to this day I put a pillow on the floor before I kneel. Then life happens and you feel something so strongly, so quickly that you don't have time to think and you just hit your knees to talk to God. Today is one of those days. Dwight is getting checked for cancer again. It's a follow up. It was planned but then delayed by Covid 19.  He's done everything the doctors have told him to do. I'm praying the tests come back clear. I'm not allowed in the hospital so all I can do is wait and pray. I wish I was closer to him. If I'm this scared, I can't imagine what Dwight must be feeling. Who am I kidding? He's probably just pissed that he couldn't have biscuits and gravy this morning.  That man. That crazy red neck hillbilly. He's the love of my life. I don't want him sick or in any pain.  Please God take the cancer away.

Wednesday, June 3, 2020

Enough already

  • I understand  Black lives matter. I think all lives matter.  I understand that you have a right to protest. I really do. But, I have a right to live my life. I have the right to go to work and support my family. I don't think a community should be targeted for the beliefs of a few. I believe I have the right to defend myself if threatened.  I won't hesitate and I damn sure won't be making a fucking video.